Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Monday, November 26, 2012
Bring a fuzzy jacket....
Where I am… Well if we speak in simply geographical terms I am in Aurora Nebraska, 68818. That doesn’t sound too terribly exciting now does it? It doesn’t even sound that special, “Oh yeah I’m from Aurora.” Well so are a mass amount of other people so join the club! But I like to think I am pretty special so I suppose I will get into some specifics as to where I am…
Right now I am sitting in a chair in the media center. It is frigid as always but today I came prepared and am wearing a delightfully snuggly and overly large Husker’s hoodie. I’m not real excited to be here right now, to be honestly I am dreading it. All I want is this day to be done. I’m not usually such a Debby Downer, but my day didn’t start in the most amazing way. First of all yesterday I had a wisdom tooth removed, not exactly unpleasant due to the intense amount of numbing substance I had injected into my gum. I think the most unpleasant part was the grotesque scraping sounds coming from my mouth as he did something to uproot the unnecessary tooth. But it was quick and painless so I survived! Nobody told me that I was going to randomly start drooling blood on myself in the middle of Sam’s, I’m pretty sure people thought I had TB or something… So I wasn’t really a fan of that, I was even less a fan of when the numbing agents wore off… Anyway fast forward to 6:45 this morning my mouth is throbbing, my face is swollen, and my tattoo itches like you don’t even understand. But I got up and went to shower, only to have my efforts thwarted by my father who woke up late and demanded the shower first. His sleeping in caused me to be late to school and caused him to forget I was in desperate need of gas so I had to pay for it… So yeah today is not my day to say the least.
But that is neither here nor there. I’m usually a more positive person, so let us venture to a more positive topic. My home could be considered where I am, because that’s pretty much where I am most of the time anyway. It’s nothing too special or extravagant, but it is where I call home and I am pretty fond of it! It’s a simple farmhouse off the highway, with a garage, and a typical red barn.
Another place I am all the time is school… I’m not REALLY here willingly but it’s kind of a good thing to be required by law. As I previously pointed out the media center is freezing, but so is everywhere else in this school! Ryan Johnson and I have a theory that the school is kept so cold so our souls are preserved. I don’t care the reason I would just like to be warmer, but alas this is not the case hence my latest investments in giant fuzzy hoodies and jackets.
I guess another place I frequently am is my work… That is not a place I like. I don’t like it at all. Pretty much just hate it. But I am in constant need of money, so it’s kind of a place I have no choice to be in. When I say it’s terrible I mean it’s really , really terrible, not just an over exaggeration because every teenager hates their high school jobs… no it is awful. I have to deal with terribly rude customers every day. And I cannot stand up and defend myself against their awfulness or I get the joy of being fired… So I have to paste on a smile and say, “Thank you, have a nice day!” But in my mind I am silently screaming, “BURST INTO FLAME, BURST INTO FLAME, BURST INTO FLAME!!!!” Fortunately for most of society my mind powers haven’t worked yet… I’m putting emphasis on the word yet because one day I like to think I’ll get lucky and the next old guy that tries to call me stupid because I’m blonde will be smited...Where am I at in my life? I have no clue…. I like to think one day I will be able to sort that all out. But who knows??? Right now I am just going through my life trying to build a good base for the best future, you know going to college, attaining financial stability that whole shebang. Moral of the story I am pretty happy with my life, except for the frigid coldness of the media center…. That should stop…
Thursday, November 8, 2012
So You Wanna Know Who I Am Eh??
Who are
you? A question that is often asked, usually people are only implying they want
to know your name. They don’t REALLY want to know who you are. Your past, you
experiences, what you want to be when you’re all grown up… that stuff probably
doesn’t interest just any person off the street… But I suppose since you asked and I’m
supposed to have 750 words I’m guessing I should get into a little more detail
than JUST my name.
I am
Taylar Rathbun. First born daughter of Ryan and Jennifer Rathbun, sister of Jeris
Rathbun, and hater of ALL spiders... I just turned 18 today! Well if you’re
reading this after November 8, 2012 then that’s kind of a lie. But if you are
then awesome! Yes indeed I am a whole 18 years old, but I can’t say that I feel
any different. As far as I am really concerned about it it’s just another birthday.
Everyone gets so excited about turning 18, but I don’t understand why. In
Nebraska you are technically not a “big kid” until you’re 19, you can’t play
the lottery until your 19, basically the only thing you can really do as an 18
year old is to legally smoke or chew tobacco… And that really doesn’t appeal to
me so hence why it’s just another day in my life... Not to sound like I’m
ungrateful for another year of life! I am far from! I’m grateful for everyday
that God has given me and want to spend it in a positive way. I won’t mislead
you and act like I do something amazingly productive every day! But I at least
try to be a good person to the people around me.
Being
good to people is really important to me. It hasn’t always been though, back
when I was younger I was kind of an outsider. I was shy, pretty awkward, and I
just wasn’t a popular kid! I was kind of mean and resentful and I was hurtful
to people that didn’t deserve my wrath… But I have grown up and matured and
realized that you need to be good to the people around you. You don’t know what
kind of pain is going on in that person’s life and chances are they really
don’t need your attitude! I really like to think that I have become a better
person, and I think that is why I am a happier person! Sometimes I do slip, but
I am only human. I learn from those mistakes and I find a way to better improve
myself.
Something
else that is a big priority in my life is my religion. Like I said when I was
younger I felt out of place and was resentful about it, but I started to get
more involved with God and it has really helped me feel like I had a place. I
have become a more religious and more positive person. Most people don’t really
see me as a religious person, I don’t really know why but I guess I can go with
it??? All that matters is that I know my relationship with God.
Something
that I always must have in my life is music! I love to listen to it, play it,
sing it, I just love it all! I have been in chorus since 8th grade
and have just had the bravery to be in Rhapsody this year. I never really had
the confidence to try out for it before last year but at the time I figured I’ll
be a senior I won’t have the option to do it again. So I tried out… and got
chewed out for not trying out sooner by Mr. Frew which I think can be taken as
a sort of compliment. What a lot of
people don’t know about me is that I can actually play quite a few instruments:
the piano, violin, viola, and the guitar. But to be completely honest I am a
wee bit out of practice on them. It really does make me sad that I don’t have
time to just play, but as they say, “Life just happens!”
Well
anyway, I don’t really know if this helps to tell you who I am but I did try!
To be completely honest I really don’t know who I am yet. The way that I look
at is that I’m in progress, and probably will always be… And I’m quite alright
with it.
Song From Life Soundtrack...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wgbv3d-k7sA
I'm not a fan of the video, but I enjoy the lyrics...
I'm not a fan of the video, but I enjoy the lyrics...
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